I don’t consider myself religious, sentimental, or traditional but I must say the past two days have completely calmed my spirit.
I have been doing my Christmas baking. It’s a multi-week process for me; choosing the recipes, trying to come up with a schedule, planning my ingredients list and of course the inevitable change of mind that comes from choosing too much in the first place. Oh GEESH! I approach baking like a project! Is it really that ingrained in me?
I remember helping my Mom and sisters make gingerbread men and shaped sugar cookies. YUM! Now I can’t image Christmas without baking. I don’t think Christmas would be the same without it even though I now give almost all of the goodies away.
Sometimes I find myself feeling scattered – without focus; there seems to be so much to do and not enough time. Doesn’t this sound like everyone’s life at times? The last two days seem to have completely brought me back to earth; working with the dough, listening to happy music and seeing the lines of cookies cooling on the table soothes my spirit. Gardening does this for me too but I certainly can’t do that this time of year.
Perhaps it is the motion that allows me to release my thoughts, to not think beyond this moment. I feel energized, focused, and ready to get back to that list hanging over me.
It’s strange, when I was working full time (often over-time) I always had time for exercise, imagination for cooking, and for all the other chores on my list. I think the first thing on my to-do list will have to become “get back on track.” Don’t get me wrong, I’m not obsessive about my day being structured but you have to admit, it’s easier to get things done if you have it.
So, now, I feel grounded and it looks like I’ve given myself a good swift kick in the rear. I’m ready to face the world and my obligations clearly once again. What a relief!